Wow, I hate this.

Aug. 1st, 2025 10:48 pm
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Today I just realized that All in the Family ISN'T just plain invisible or "Error 404" when people reach it. People see the takedown notice and since I very obviously don't do photorealistic art, kinda the only conclusion to draw is that my work is "Content glorifying sexual violence" or "minors, minor-presenting, or suggested minors in a sexual context."

This is incredibly degrading. This might be more humiliating than getting shadowbanned from Gumroad for Cultiples, and that was pretty damn crummy.

I make mental health work about sexual trauma. It's bad for business to have "minors in a sexual context" as code for "child pornography" anywhere near me professionally, even if you ignore that this is, again, a memoir about how incest fucked me up. The whole point is that it's awful! Josie Riesman called it "one of the most brutal and engaging comics I’ve ever read." Tarun Athmika did a whole fucking paper on the politics of implication in (among other things) All in the Family, and how bans of discussion of oppression supports that oppression! Holy shit, he couldn't have been more prescient had he tried!

I've still heard nothing from itch.io. I ordered my payout a week ago and it's still "in review." I don't know if I'm going to get paid. The idea that I might get pedojacketed, AGAIN, for totally nonsense reasons is...

I don't know what it is.

This never used to happen to me until 2023, and now it's becoming normal to me. This is just life to me now. And I feel stupidly naive that it took this long to happen; it feels like it was always going to.

At least I can take comfort that the Banned Book Sale is going well. But god, I would've way rathered never throwing one.

2025 August Fan Poll

Aug. 1st, 2025 05:59 pm
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Heads up, y'all; on account of having my psychological murder memoir banned as child pornography, I am throwing a Banned Book Sale to help compensate for the loss! Enjoy! And now for the usual poll announcement:

Hey everybody, it's that time again: time to vote for which stuff gets the LiberaPay/Patreon money this month!

As always, anyone can vote (please do!), but LiberaPay and Patreon patrons get double weight for their votes.  (Due to Patreon's porn purges, I really encourage you to use LiberaPay, if you get a choice.) If you want to see the blurbs for any of these works, those are here!  (You can also leave your requests there; requesting a story or essay is always free!) If you don't have a DW and so can't do the poll, that's okay; just leave your vote in the comments below; anon comments are turned on.

Which works gets the money, and thus posted this month?  YOU CHOOSE, readers!
Poll #33450 2025 August Fan Poll
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 9


Did you toss LiberaPay/Patreon money my way last month?

View Answers

Yes (my votes count double)
3 (100.0%)

What writing gets posted this month?

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Infinity Smashed: Born Lucky
0 (0.0%)

Reverend Alpert: the Traveling Exorcist
0 (0.0%)

Henchwench for Hire (F/F supervillainy)
1 (11.1%)

Rutless (trans omegaverse porno)
2 (22.2%)

Flights of Reality (the Cursed City)
0 (0.0%)

Anatomy of a Dance (essay)
1 (11.1%)

The Boy Whose Heart Is Home (teen hardship)
2 (22.2%)

The Battleaxe and the Blood-Eater (pseudo Greco-Roman gladiators)
3 (33.3%)

LB Economics (essay)
2 (22.2%)

Cultiples #1 Afterword (essay made of AAAAAAH)
2 (22.2%)

Aphantasia and Headspace (essay)
4 (44.4%)

two apocalyptic micro-stories
0 (0.0%)

What art/comic/zine gets posted this month?

View Answers

Cult Comix
3 (33.3%)

Death Watch
3 (33.3%)

How it Was, How It Is
4 (44.4%)

2012 hospital sketchbook
0 (0.0%)

2013 Homeless Year sketchbook
1 (11.1%)

2014 AllFam sketchbook
2 (22.2%)

Blushing and Scent (Mori/Rawlin fluff)
3 (33.3%)

2015 early Biff sketchbook
1 (11.1%)

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The Hands of a Dozen Strangers: My Experience at a Compassionate Touch Workshop
Summary: “Loving, consensual touch can be a deliberate religious practice.” —Christine Hoff Kraemer, Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, pg. 122.
Series: Essay
Word Count: 2700
Notes: Winner of the LiberaPay/Patreon fan poll! A lot of these ideas I originally got from Eros and Touch from a Pagan Perspective, especially chapters 1: “Divided for Love’s Sake: An Erotic Cosmology” and 4: “the Sacrament of Touch.” The author has generously uploaded it to archive.org; check it out!

Unsurprisingly to anyone familiar with my history, I (Rogan of LB) have trouble being physically close to people. So what was I doing going to a compassionate touch workshop in a mysterious half-renovated warehouse with a dozen strangers, most of them men? Well, I wanted a change. I wanted to change.

Read more... )
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Thank you again to everyone who's contributed to the Banned Book Sale; I didn't expect the response and am deeply grateful. I've sold like a dozen books in a week, which is super-unusual for me. Thank you!

Until I hash things out with itch.io (no response yet), you can buy the AllFam ebook (and the script version) on Payhip. I am slowly uploading all my ebooks there, starting with the stuff most likely to be banned. I have everything copied over now except for the Megapack which is... by far the largest and may take a bit.

EDIT: okay, Megapack should be up now too. Whew.

Comic: Red Tape Hell, 2015

Jul. 30th, 2025 01:07 pm
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Wow, y'all really stepped up for the banned book sale. Y'all sure showed me! Much gratitude to all y'all; with fans like you, I am truly blessed.

This was the winner of the fan poll and paid for by supporters at LiberaPay and Patreon! Originally printed in 2015 for the floppy copies of All In the Family #3, they were cut from the final paperback version. Now they live again!

Text-only transcript in the comments below!

every legally disabled person has a story like this )
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Okay, so to quickly explain what's going on with itch.io (and Fansly, and Steam, and Patreon, and OnlyFans, and and and...)

So, when you buy something from a website, there's you (the customer), the creator of the thing (the maker), and the website you buy it on (the shop). But then there's the payment processor. The payment processor is a middle-man between you and the shopkeeper.

The metaphor I use is: imagine you go to a store and decide to buy a cookie. You go to the shopkeeper to give them your money, and suddenly a guy jumps out of the bushes and tells you, "NO! You are only allowed to buy pure, clean, HEALTHY food with your cash!"

You say, "Who the fuck are you, a cop?"

"No."

"A politician? Are cookies illegal now?"

"No."

"Are you involved with the shop? The cookie makers?"

"No! We made the cash register!"

further explanation, but I am not a banker nor all that educated about payment processors )

The Desert Links Compendium

Jul. 27th, 2025 06:03 pm
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The Desert Links Compendium is a collection of links assembled to encourage learning about and appreciation for the ecology, history, and cultural heritage of deserts and drylands, with a focus on the Sonoran, Chihuahuan, and Mojave Deserts. Much thanks to Kate for her Southwest US Archaeology Reference List, which supplied some of the historical links in this collection.

Fuck it, Banned Book Sale!

Jul. 25th, 2025 01:00 pm
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Rogan: All in the Family got suspended from itch.io. Apparently according to the new Terms of Service, it's considered child pornography. Yes, my memoir about child sexual abuse. I'm fighting it, but a lot of artists are getting kicked off.

If you've been putting off downloading stuff off itch.io, now is the time to HURRY YOUR ASS UP. They look to be steam-cleaning the site after a scrubsquad of purityfucker Australians squealed at payment processors.

This is the email I got:
Read more... )

And hey, if you're like, "Wow, LB, that sure sucks that your #1 bestselling book got muzzled because of some purity wankers in Australia, I want to give you money," then thanks, friend! You're the fucking best! You can send me donations through my Paypal button or have fun buying my various wares. If you've been putting off buying my actual porn or sex shit (Multi Orgasmic, Infinity Smashed: Found Wanting, Rutless, and Coming In or Staying Out) now is the time!

In fact, you know what, for the next week, I'm going to be throwing a special offer. If you buy a paper copy of AllFam or any of the sexy things listed above, I will sign it and put a sticker on it. Your options include sparkles, rainbows, happy cute smiling things, and cute little sayings. Donate extra $ to either me or the Boston Sex Workers and Allies Collective, and I'll print you off a trans porn sticker to slap up wherever you want.

LET'S DO THIS.

EDIT: moved my ebooks to Payhip. Please buy them there; I dunno if I'm ever getting my money out of itch.io now, even for the totally NON-banned titles.
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Rogan/Mori: So, way back in the tumblr days, I would see this multi urban legend that you could only become multi if you'd been traumatized before the age of... well, the exact age would change depending on legend iteration, apparently nine was the magic number I saw in 2011, but I feel like seven was another. I could not for the life of me figure out where this stupid idea CAME from, and it drove me crazy!

Well, surprise, but while digging around doing etymological research (i.e., digging in Ralph Allison's published papers), I might've found a source of the urban legend: Allison's "Critical Issues: MPD & DID Should Be Used For Two Separate Groups of Dissociators" CANDID (California News of Dissociation and Identity Disorder), 3(3):4, 1995. (And apparently I even knew about this back in 2011 when I first blogged about this stupid urban legend, but I didn't dig deeper or put two and two together.) This paper is worth discussing, just because... well, it's crackpot as hell, and a nice example of why you shouldn't believe everything a therapist tells you, no matter how famous or (once) well-respected they are (or were).

This started as us reading a stupid paper about this guy's cracked ideas, only for us to get sucked into pointing at it as a stellar example of why therapists should not be treated like gods. )
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